Day 182: Action & Assessment

It’s been what seems like an eternity¬† since I last posted anything. My time has been consumed by working on my business, trying to bridge the gap between contracts, all the while endeavoring to help out as much as possible as my wife prepares to have our third little girl sometime in the next two weeks. Exciting stuff no doubt but I have a better sense of what it means to live on the edge and it’s no thrill seeking rush of adrenaline, I can tell you right now!

The problem with “living on the edge” is people fail to scream into your ear, the hardships you’ll encounter, rejections you’ll endure and inevitable failures that will come from jumping in the deep end with the expectation that you’ll be able to sell yourself to success. I say “scream” because I do recall hearing about handling rejection and staying positive sometime between thinking about the traffic and working out which bill to pay off first.

I had that terrible problem of having too much month at the end of the money, if you know what I mean.

What exsaserbated the situation was the fact that work was intermittent and lent itself to rhythms of all-out work to no work at all. Thanks to a friend, I was given a reprieve in the form of a small film company, working as their 3D Animator on a part-time basis. The play-makers supported my desire to continue working on my business and thus far, have been extremely accommodating.

This helped to offset my costs (and stress) slightly letting me exchange time for dollars while I do some much needed evaluation.

The conclusion of which was as follows:

1. I’ve let my procrastination steadily get the better of me over the last 4 months, cutting into my personal and family time (tsk-tsk).
2. I’ve failed to maintain a balance of work and personal time.
3. Though I’ve continued to get work here and there, I haven’t been half as proactive as I know I could be (too busy being busy).
4. I’ve let my procrastination steadily get the better of me over the last 4 months, cutting into my personal and family time (tsk-tsk).

Note: I know I’ve mentioned #4 in the first point but it’s just that important! And given that misery loves company, I have only ALL OF YOU to blame for subconsciously attracting me to your procrastinating ways!!

…bah, who am I kidding. I know that I did everything I possibly could to end up in this predicament and by knowing this, at the very least, I can begin walking up the mountain as opposed to falling further into the valley beside it.

…by knowing this, at the very least, I can begin walking up the mountain as opposed to falling further into the valley beside it.

So my first port of call was to look at a list I’d written a month ago that had everything I needed to do (the most important things) in order to move forward. The shameful thing was that I’d still not completed all but one of these 15 tasks.

The writing was truly on the wall.

I decided to tackle the one I’d been putting off the longest (a truly cringing experience given what it had cost my financially to avoid this task) and though I’d like to say I’ve done it, I must honestly admit that I will be retiring to bed so that I may be ready for tomorrow. I will, however,¬† finish it tomorrow given that I’ve seen how simple it really was to get the ball rolling. Hopefully over time, my bad habit of putting today things off till tomorrow, will change into a good discipline. I just have to do better each day, than the last.

With that, I leave a quote by Jim Rohn, for all who are in a similar situation as I. I follow that with a simple challenge to strive to be on the other side of the scale, to make success as easy to follow as Jim says it is.

“failure is nothing more than a few errors in judgment repeated every day. Success is easy to follow: It’s a few simple disciplines practiced every day.”